Hello Beautiful People!  I would like to share with you about the second chakra and my experiences with balancing my own.  I continue to learn and work through balancing all of my chakras.  The word “chakra” in Sanskrit means “wheel” or “disk”.  It refers to a spiritual energy within the human body, of which there are seven energy wheels, starting at the base of the spine through the crown of your head.  Imagine there is an invisible Prana, or life force, spinning energy where matter and consciousness meet which keeps us vibrant, healthy and alive.  The wheels correspond to massive nerve centers, major organs as well as our psychological, emotional and spiritual states of being.  It is important that our seven main chakras stay open, aligned, fluid and balanced.  If there is a blockage, energy cannot flow and we feel stuck or trapped in an energy pattern.  The goal is to balance all seven chakras so that we can begin to energetically thrive.  Diseases begin energetically through our mental and emotional patterns.  If we can energetically change and heal our emotional states in a positive way then we can release negative feelings and emotions which cause our illnesses.  We can begin to live a fulfilling life with joy and peace.  The present moment unfolds before your eyes as you let go of past hurt and future worries.  You begin to feel safe, secure and a sense of belonging in the world.

Let’s talk about the second chakra.  This is a very cool chakra, they all are really!  The second chakra is your sacral chakra and it correlates with your sexual creativity.  The color is orange, the key is D, the element is water.  Essential oils that are nice for the second chakra are: cardamom, clary sage, neroli, orange, patchouli, rose, sandalwood, yang ylang.  It is located in your lower abdomen to navel area.  The energy connection to the body is the sexual organs, large intestine, lower vertebrae, pelvis, hip area, appendix and bladder.  The chakra relates to our relationships with other people and our need to control our physical environment to some extent.  The energy in this chakra enables us to have a sense of personal identity and protective psychological boundaries.  The fears associated with this chakra are fear of loss of control, or fear of being controlled by another.  The strengths associated with this chakra are the ability to survive financially and physically on one’s own and to defend and protect oneself.  Here resides the “fight or flight” instinct.  The sacred truth of the second chakra is Honor One Another.  The purpose of all of our relationships is to become more conscious whether the relationship is casual or more intimate.  Much of this information comes from Carolyn Myss’s book titled Anatomy of the Spirit.  Please check it out if you want to read more.

So my second chakra was out of wack!  I have been divorced for two years now but definitely the divorce shook me in ways that I wasn’t expecting.  I was with my ex for over 10 years and I didn’t realize how afraid I was after the separation.  My primary fear was fear of survival.  I worked with him and his dog training business for most of the time that we were together.  I had to decide, would I still be a dog trainer without him?  This is a good question to ask yourself if you are with a partner and working together.  Are you doing it to help them live out their dream?  Would you still be doing this if that person was no longer in your life?  I had the classic dream of building a life, a business and a family together.  What I didn’t realize was that in the process of doing this, I was giving up myself.  I was giving up my dreams, my life, my business of choice for the benefit of the family.  I wasn’t taking care of myself, I was taking care of everyone else.  When I shockingly realized this it was like a humble slap in the face.  Looking back this seems so obvious but for me I was completely blind sighted by my own denial of the situation.  After we separated I found myself angry.  I was angry that I was doing everything for the unit and not myself.  I was angry that I was coming last and most importantly that I was desperately unhappy.  I am a very hard worker and I worked very hard at my classical dream of the life, business, family unit.  When everything fell apart I was crushed.  I had to let things go and start asking myself, what would I be doing if I was the last person on earth?  How would I be spending my time?  What is my passions in life?  How am I going to start over?

Starting over was a very slow gradual process for me.  Yes I could have gone out and gotten any job but I had a strong calling to take a chance and live out the life of my dreams.  How can I do this?  At the divorce I found myself as a single mom with 2 young children, a 2 year old, a 4 year old and both of my parents were very sick with Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s.  It seemed like my whole world was crashing down on me.  My ex was able to move on with new partners where I found myself craving being alone.  You would think I would have wanted to move on too, I did, but I found myself with very little time alone to develop my new life.  A new partner would take up the little alone time that I had.  Yes I would have a partner but I would find myself in the same co-dependent state that I was in before.  I wanted real change with real options and results for myself.  I sometimes wonder if I made things more painful for myself that they needed to be but either way, I was hurting BAD.  I spent the last year of my life alone and in a full out hustle to develop the new life that I wanted to live.  I had to focus on my finances to stabilize them with the new business that I was growing.  Without financial security, my second chakra would be out of wack.  

I found myself doing a lot of visionary work to create this new life that I wanted to live.  This started with a 30 day meditation project where I meditated in silence for 30 minutes for 30 days.  I was in complete resistance to meditating because I am a do’er and sitting and doing nothing seemed like a complete waste of time for me.  Not doing anything and sitting with myself was the best thing that I could do for myself.  I found myself wanting to forgive everyone in my life and in the process forgive myself.  This incredible healing journey overcame my energetic body and I now live a much different life energetically.  I had to shed many tears, completely stop everything and ask God what should I do.  I started to listen to everything that was being presented before me.  Nothing was an accident, I thought.  I started building my business one step at a time.  I threw myself into my yoga practice which I am madly in love with and in the process I am developing the body that I always wanted.  I made up with my mom whom I was angry with for the past year and a half.  It mended my relationships with family and my father who really needed help.  I started fixing things that were wrong with my house creating a strong foundation for myself and designing it creatively to accommodate my preferences.  For the first time, I am beginning to live the life that I wanted to live.  I am starting to feel control over my own environment where I didn’t feel that before.  

Creatively speaking, alone time is the best time for creative development.  I didn’t realize how important this was until I had it, used it for creating and was amazed by what was coming out of me.  I started expressing myself creatively through my yoga practice.  I would spend lots of time looking up the best teachers, going to the best teachers classes, learning, applying and designing the yoga classes that I wanted to take.  They weren’t being offered anywhere and this was what I had to offer.  I have a desire for strength work in my yoga practice with the vinyasa moving meditation and creative choreography.  If you haven’t come to one of my classes yet then I personally invite you.  Please come, share with me, if anything is too difficult then take a child’s pose for a moment and continue on when you are ready.  I want to meet you and connect.  This is the other area of my life that has shifted.  I learned how to be more compassionate through my struggles.  Now I can really listen to someone and feel deep compassion for their journey.  I’m learning that no one has it super easy.  Through this compassion, I’m finding my relationships are better.  I’m becoming a better friend.  I’m not perfect but I’m trying.  

Creative writing starting flowing through me.  I started by writing about my 30 day meditation project and realized I really like writing.  Somehow ideas and words are flowing through my fingers on the keyboard faster than I can physically type them out.  This was really cool for me to experience because I never thought of myself as creative before.  Then someone said it to me, “You’re really creative” and I thought to myself, “Am I?”.  “Yes!”  of course I am!  We all are creative!  Maybe some of you simply haven’t spent enough alone time yet to play and find out where your creative energy lies.  Maybe it’s in cooking, cleaning, organizing, writing, music, dancing, building a business, anything.  We all have something!  You have something very unique and special to give to the universe that only you can deliver.  Find out what that is!  I promise you it is so fulfilling to tap into your creativity.  For me, it’s how God speaks through me coming up with something more cool and amazing than I could have done on my own.  

Finally, my sexuality.  I really struggle with talking about this one because I have been open in the past about my life.  I found out that people harshly judge you based off your sexuality, if you are a good person or not.  For the most part, I am choosing to become a much more private person, protecting myself unless I trust someone.  In general, for awhile I was exploring my edges trying to find out what felt comfortable for me.  Then I went into the complete opposite, finding myself in seclusion and stopping everything as I wasn’t finding what I was looking for.  It’s been a long time now and I decided to see what’s out there once again.  I am careful with my time as I don’t want anything interfering with my creative alone time but I also realize that I’m lonely and that life is better when you have someone to share it with.  As far as sexual expression goes, that takes shape with everything that you choose to wear and how your present yourself.  If you want to feel sexy then it could be something as simple as putting on long dangling earrings or perfume.  You get to creatively decide how you want to express yourself.  I love people who are unique and who break the conservative social rules that seem to take shape nowadays.  Life is meant to be expressed uniquely.  I invite you to express yourself as I can’t think of anything more refreshing than to see the unique beautiful person unfolding before me.  You are creative.  You are beautiful.  You are sexy.  Explore it and discover the beautiful treasure within you waiting to be found.  I love you all.  I don’t claim to be a chakra expert but I can show you how they applied to my life.  I hope this helps you on your journey to live the life of your dreams!  Peace, love, happiness and a balanced second chakra!