Today I wake up tired because I ate chocolate last night and the caffeine kept me up until late. Maybe this wouldn't affect most people but as you start to eat cleaner and cleaner you become either more sensitive to things or you notice what it was that disturbed your existence in some way. For me, I think it was a little of both. I fell asleep after 1am and I have to be up at 7am. For some people, this might be enough sleep but not for me! I am a sleeper. I love to sleep. I love to wake up on my own with no alarm when I'm ready to wake up. I love going to bed early too, just so I can get enough sleep. When I was younger I was the opposite. I would stay up late and go to school or work tired and that was a normal part of my functioning. I feel so good now, I don't ever want to go back to that way of living.
I get the kids ready for school, come home, sit in my pool house and meditate. It feels so good to rest in the early morning sun. The temperature is perfect and the early sun isn't too strong. I close my eyes and look at my aura's. In the past few days, I've been seeing lots of purples. Today I see rainbow auras everywhere. There are half rainbows, full rainbows and pieces of rainbows all together. They are beautiful, surrounded by white spikes of lights going in every direction. In my vision they are mostly blue, yellow and white strips. Some have the red, orange, green and purple in the middle but not many. I honestly didn't even know that you could see rainbows in your auras. This was new for me. I look up rainbow auras when I come home and I find Rainbow Aura Quartz. Now I have to have one of these stones but I will wait until I accidentally pass a store that has stones verses going out and looking for them. I want a whiter version so that it matches my vision. Why don't they have a stone shop in Clermont, Florida! I don't want to drive an hour to get one. Either way, it was peaceful and mesmerizing and wonderful. I look up what it means to see rainbow auras and this is what I find, "The presence of a rainbow aura, a combination of all the colors in the spectrum, indicates a highly evolved person; someone who has tapped into every power in their spiritual arsenal. It typically appears as a starburst or possibly even a series of speckled colors."
I'll take this explanation:) . I have been regularly meditating, doing self study, shadow work and all sorts of healings to heal my soul. Pendulum work. Chakra study. Spiritual study. Tarot and Oracle cards. Energy work. Meditation. Yoga. And being consciously present. I've also been working on facing all of my fears and making an effort to really know my true authentic self. I forgot who I was for a long time mostly through cultural conditioning, wanting to please others, trying not to rock the boat, and being afraid to speak my truth. Lately, I've been letting all of this go and learning to love who I really am for the first time ever. Yes, I'm guilty of being a horrible self critic to myself in the past. Now, I stopped judging and I simply accept what is. I want to be my true self in this lifetime and love the heck out of the real me. I know it will rock the boat a little but at least I'll be honest with my soul. Rainbow auras are beautiful by the way. I hope you get to see them one day. And if you don't then I still have it in the back of my head that I'll learn how to paint one day. I hope to paint these auras to share with you since I can't really find pictures of the ones that I see on the internet.
As I meditate I think about yoga. I love yoga so much. I love that I'm learning something new all the time. It's amazing how endless there is to learn about it. I've made some break throughs. I've been working on an arm balance called Eka Pada Koundinyasana and I could only do it if I dropped my elbows into my ribs which is kind of like riding a bike with training wheels on. I've been fighting to get more core strength to lift my gluts, adding extra push ups to strengthen my arms, all of the above. I learned that I already had all the strength that I needed, I was just engaging the wrong muscles. I needed to squeeze my leg in tight in order to lift myself off my elbow. I was working on it forever and then my yoga teacher, Shelly Kwiatkouski simply tells me to squeeze my thigh in tight and boom I'm flying in this inversion off my elbow. I really see how it's important to do a lot of self work but if you hit a plateau that you can't get past then it's nice to have a good mentor who can help you jump over the next hurdle. I'm excited because I want to start adding in inversion flows into my personal practice. Choreography passes through my mind.
I breathe in the morning air and I'm loving living in Florida. This is a big change as I hated it the first two years that I lived here. It took me 4.5 years of living here to really love it! I didn't realize how much I love it until I drove into a big city again, Tampa and was miserable on the road. I love the beauty of Clermont. I love the lakes. I love the simple, calm pace of life. I love all of the people I'm surrounded by. I'm very grateful.
I'm loving my meditations. I'm starting to love my life. Of course there are good days and bad days still but overall, I'm quite content. I've never really been content in the past. I was always wanting something more or something different so this is really a big shift for me. Peace out beautiful people. I'm sending much love and gratitude to you all. I hope to infect you with the contentment that I feel so that you also experience the peace that I'm feeling now.