Today I wake up early, 6:30 and sneak into my living room as quiet as I can so I don't wake the 5 dogs that we have at the house. If I wake the dogs then they wake the babies and I'm on duty. Ssssshhhhhh. Quiet. I don't do anything to make myself too comfortable other then sit on a yoga mat as I stealth like sneak into my seat. I set the timer and I'm off to La La Land.
It takes a little time to settle into the meditation. I can hear the dogs rustle and whimper a little. I tense up a little and hope they settle. I don't move a muscle other than focus on my breathing. I start to relax. My mind wanders all over future plans of moving, selling furniture, new school for my kids. I have an airbnb and I had two tenants who threw parties and upset my neighbors. I'm getting pressured to take the listing down. I have to make big decisions about the place and like a chess game I think of all my possible moves and the possible outcomes for the different choices that I can make. Do I simply sell the house? Do I long term rent it and move the furniture out? Do I try to rent it fully furnished? Or do I move back into it? Sometimes I don't like being an adult having to make big choices. Can someone else decide for me? The curse of being a Libra sinks me into indecision. Breathe. My friend says don't worry everything will be ok. Ok, then. Can it be that simple? Is all my worry wasted energy? Simply take an action, any of them and stop thinking. If one doesn't work then try another until the best decision arrives to me. I go back to my breath. Deep inhale. Hold it at the top for a beat. Long exhalation. I want to sell it.
I wish I was outside but it's chilly outside and I don't want to move around too much to wake up the house to bundle up. Breathe. I think about sitting up tall and rolling my shoulders down and back so that I can line up my chakras. Peace. I like the quiet. I like the stillness. I check the time, 11 minutes to go so I go. I check the time again, 3 more minutes. I check the time again, 1:14 over time and I'm done.