WAAAHHHHHHH! I've been wanting to quit caffeine for a long time now and I just haven't been able to do it. Let's face it, I'm totally addicted to coffee. My friend Amber Dellich started a "30-day cut the caffeine & alcohol challenge" group on Facebook and I joined! Maybe you would like to join too! I have been able to quit drinking for a day but I quickly end up going back to it. I'm only on day 3 and so far, I am feeling the withdraw symptoms pretty bad. I am experiencing splitting headaches. They are bad and it makes me want to sleep. This sleepy feeling is my adrenals catching up. When I drink coffee I'm not getting any energy from it as coffee has zero calories. The caffeine in the coffee taps into your adrenal glands and uses your back up batteries leaving you extra tired. The only way to properly regenerate nerve energy is through sleep. So let's just say that if you play then you're going to have to pay. To be honest, I don't ever want to feel like this again and these withdrawal symptoms makes me want to permanently quit drinking caffeine. My body will feel sleepy until my adrenal glands have recovered.
Your adrenal glands are a part of your endocrine system. Your body works as a whole therefore it is impossible to impact only your adrenal glands and not any of the other glands in your endocrine system. The other glands in your endocrine system are: hypothalamus, pituitary, thyroid, parathyroids, adrenals, pineal body, the ovaries and the testes. The endocrine system is a network of glands that secrete chemicals called hormones to help your body function properly. Hormones are chemical signals that coordinate a range of bodily functions. If your hormones are out of wack, then caffeine can be throwing them off balance. There is so much to learn about the endocrine system but I want to stay on topic:)
I've been studying Natural Hygiene for awhile now and caffeine is a no no. One reason why is that caffeine is an acidic drink. Our blood wants to maintain a slightly alkaline pH at around 7.4. Coffee's pH is around a 4.5. Some caffeinated soft drinks like Coke is at 2.52 which is very acidic! Your body has five primary alkalizing minerals: Calcium, Magnesium, Potassium, Manganese and Iron. When you drink or eat acidic foods your body dissolves it's alkaline minerals to neutralize the blood pH to maintain homeostasis. Essentially your body is dissolving it's bones where most of these minerals are stored into the bloodstream. Then your liver and kidney's have to clean the blood which uses nerve energy which is what Natural Hygienist would call enervating. These minerals re-formulate in the kidney's into kidney stones and we pee out our bones. People with Osteoporosis, Anemia or many other diseases would benefit from eliminating all acidic foods while simultaneously eating alkaline foods such as fruits and vegetables. Top acidic foods are meat, dairy, teas, coffees, alcohol, etc. Top alkaline foods are your greens except spinach, chard, mustard greens and beet greens because they contain oxalic acid in them creating that acidic effect. This rolls into a much bigger topic about which foods are acidic or not but we'll leave that for another post. I simply wanted to explain why giving up caffeine is beneficial because most caffeinated drinks are acidic. Stop putting acidic things into the body that your body has to clean up later. Conserve your nerve energy for your sports.
When your body dissolves it's bones to neutralize the blood pH then it can cause arthritis. Let me explain, your body wants to clean the blood all the time. If there are extra minerals in the blood then the body puts them into the places that cause the least damage, your joints. It is also common for calcium deposits to build up in the feet leaving hard bone growths on the feet. This extra calcium build up can also come from your water supply. Distilled water is best because your body can only absorb organic minerals from plants. Inorganic minerals are plant food, then the plant change the molecular structure into a format that the human body can easily assimilate. Ideally you are only drinking distilled water when thirsty. When you are eating a lot of fruits and vegetables then you may drink less as there is a lot of hydration in these foods. The more that you cook your foods then the more water you may be drinking since cooking evaporates most of the water from foods.
Another reason is that caffeine is a diuretic. It drains the water in your body leaving you feeling dehydrated. I know this to be true as I race to the bathroom after my morning coffee's. It's an irritant on the bladder that can make you have to urinate more frequently and more urgently. If you have this issue, then quitting can help. You need that hydration so you don't get constipated. The water in your body helps to flush things on through. If you want a flatter looking stomach then you want to stay hydrated so that you are literally not "full of shit". I know it's gross but it's true. Move the poo on out! Think easy in easy out foods all the time so you are not carrying around anything extra. The toxins that are in the stool can get re-absorbed back into the blood stream if they are stuck in the intestines waiting to move on out. Stay hydrated and avoid diuretics to have a healthier digestive system.
Bottom line, I've known about these facts for a long time and I have wanted to quit but I needed some encouragement. Many times we have emotional attachments to our addictions. I have lots of memories drinking coffee on the train with my dad and my mom making it for me in the mornings, amongst other things. My friend Amber is certainly a good encouragement. My mom makes coffee for herself every morning and is happy to make more for me if I want it. It's really me who has to learn how to have the discipline to resist. If she doesn't want to change then that's her choice and I have to respect it. However, I do wish she would quit soda and coffee as she regularly has painful kidney stones and she just had a surgery where a stint broke up a large kidney stone into smaller ones so they could pass. Lead by example, I have to go first and be strong:) . I know I'll feel a lot better letting it go. If you are inspired by this post then please join the group, 30-day cut the caffeine & alcohol challenge, on Facebook. If you aren't ready to kick the habit then just know that I understand and I love you guys anyway! Thank you beautiful Amber for inspiring me:) I love you guys. Peace, Light and Good Luck!
I had someone mention MGTOW to me and I was like what the heck is that? It means Men Going Their Own Way. It seems to be in response to the feminist movement of Me Too. Men going their own way is essentially men deciding not to get married and risking their finances on a woman. Some of these men are abstaining from women all together and some men are opting for an escort for companionship verses a wife or girlfriend. They feel like the legal system is set up for them to fail and in not in favor of men. From the videos that I see and from what I've heard, men don't want to get "financially fucked" after a divorce and have to pay child support and alimony forever. They feel like the feminist movement to protect women has gone overboard. Men are afraid to advance with a woman in fear of a woman shouting, Me Too. They are also afraid to shower women with gifts, dinners and spending money because they don't want to get used. They are standing up and saying that they have value too.
Wow! This is all I have to say. As I hear about Me Too and MGTOW, I can objectively see both sides. Yes, women have been exploited in the workplace, home and social circles. It happens all the time and yes I can say Me Too. What needs to happen to change this so that people can still get together respectfully? How can women voice their boundaries better? This makes me sad for both of these two situations because I see females alone and I see men alone. Both sides are afraid to get together. It has been said that both of these movements create a victim mindset instead of taking responsibility. For me luckily I was able to work things out with my children's father where we share custody and all finances for the kids. We didn't do it through the court. We did it through mutual respect, communication and kindness for each other.
When I first heard about MGTOW, being a single mom, I was appalled. I couldn't even look at the videos or hear about the subject. I felt angry. I felt angry because I never asked for anything from my ex-husband. The complaints that men were saying weren't anything that I experienced in my personal situation. After a woman gets pregnant, they are in a very vulnerable situation. The baby demands so much from the mom and the mom's need help. I personally know single mom's where the dad hasn't helped in the child's life by spending time or money. I think this creates a wound in society because it impacts the woman and the children. I can look on single mom boards and I see tons of single moms raising children alone. They are lonely, sad and have given up on men. It is incredibly difficult for these women and the children suffer too. I also know of situations where men have to pay alimony until the woman has moved on with another spouse. How long can that be? Indefinite. Many men don't want to deal with the responsibility of being a parent. They are afraid of having to pay child support for a long time. There are more single mom's out there than ever before and men are now abstaining from some women, fighting back with the MGTOW movement. How can we do better than this? We can pretend that we don't need each other and live our lives alone but what would be better is if there was some kind of compromise where both sides feel safe and secure.
Women can fear that a man is going to leave them for a younger more beautiful woman when they age. Beauty seems to be a woman's currency. For men, it seems to be security more than looks. Either way, these are both needy ways to date. Beauty can fade at any time and security from a guy can also change at anytime. How are you prepared to take care of yourself? How can we date for the pure enjoyment of someone else's companionship verses what we can get out of the situation? Love should be fun and joyful and it saddens me to see so much fear and separation out there. Have women taken things too far with how much they are asking from a man after a divorce? I am willing to say yes, I'm sure some women have (not all) and that has created a ripple effect of discontent among the male population.
I think people benefit from taking some alone time to develop themselves. This doesn't have to last forever but not many people do self work. Self work helps you to create a more confident more secure person. When you know and like yourself better then you are able to make better decisions about who is a good match for you. Many times people date to cover up a wound or some pain that they are feeling and they are not getting together for the right reasons. When we take the time to do self work, to evolve our souls, to take care of our minds and bodies then we can come into a relationship and create synergy verses one side needing something from the other side. Instead we can co-create and develop a beautiful life together.
If you want to know more about the movement then watch the video below. If you are a single woman and wonder where are all the men, well, some are abstaining. They are afraid to approach someone in fear that someone will shout, Me too. What are your thoughts on this topic? Have you heard of it before? I'm curious to hear from you on how this situation can be changed to bring people together verses the separation that it is causing. After all, life is better when we live it together with love. Much peace, love and light my beauties!
The third chakra is an amazing chakra! This is the source of your internal power. It is the fire that manifests your dreams and heats up your solar plexus! Manipura is the name of the third chakra and literally means Mani - Jewel and Pura means City or Town. The mantra and the animal associated with this chakra is the Ram. The color is yellow and the location is at the base of the naval. Precious internal jewels are a part of the Manipura chakra such as pearls of clarity, self-confidence, bliss, self-assurance, knowledge, wisdom and the ability to make correct decisions. They symbol is a lotus with ten pedals. When I do a yoga class for the third chakra then I do sequences that activate your solar plexus or core. I often start a third chakra class with Kapalbhati breathing or the breath of fire to activate your core. It regulates your digestive organs and pancreas which secretes enzymes used in breaking down and digesting food. Health problems result in blockages in the third chakra such as digestive disorders, circulatory disease, diabetes and fluctuations in blood pressure. When the energy in this chakra is balanced then you find strength and balance in your life. This energy center is your sense of self, sense of purpose, personal identity and individual will.
I love reading about the chakras but I especially love hearing how they apply to people's lives. How did this apply to my life? How can I find value in this information? This chakra is how we relate to and understand ourselves. As I was doing research on enlightenment, I read that knowing yourself is one of the biggest spiritual goals. This sounds like a very simple question but it's not always. We are born as our true selves and as we grow up we learn a cultural conditioning of rules so that we can fit into the social circle surrounding us. In the process we sometimes compromise our true selves, wants and desires to please our social circles. Over time we can forget ourselves because we get so buried in the social conditioning. Getting to know yourself is simply, questioning your beliefs, putting them to the test and see what is actually true for you and what isn't. For me, I like to call it finding your authentic self. This is the self without the mask that we wear to blend into society seamlessly. It's taking off the people pleaser and being radically honest. Sometimes we put on a happy face and pretend like everything is great when deep down inside, we get an uncomfortable feeling like something is off. Imagine if all of your thoughts we said out loud, you would do more to change your life so that those thoughts were positive instead of negative. You wouldn't be able to lie and say you like something to be polite when you really don't.
Being a gregarious species we are made for each other. This doesn't mean hurting others or anything but learning what makes you happy and expressing that in a positive way. It's learning that maybe some of the social conditioning isn't serving you and if it's not then having the courage to go your own way. We all have a right to explore our lives without judgement. What works for us and what doesn't. It's creating healthy boundaries so that you can live the life of your dreams. Find something in your life that you love and become an expert at that. How can you become the person that everyone goes to for guidance and help on the thing that you are an expert at? When something gives you joy then maybe that is the thing that you should become an expert at. Tap into your creativity and manifest your passions into reality. You are capable of so much. If you don't know what your passions are then I suggest looking back at your childhood. What did you do for fun when money wasn't an issue? How can you continue doing those fun things and make money doing them? The exploration process should be fun and allow yourself to change your mind. Sometimes you have to test drive different things to discover your truth.
Look beyond what you think is capable for you in your life. You never know what is possible but let your mind work for you instead of against you in those looping thought patterns of pain. How can you use your imagination so that your thoughts come into form? This is the power of the third power. When you start to see how strong and powerful your fire really is then you can do anything. Start to believe. Start to dream your wildest dreams. What does your dream day look like? What are you doing? How long are you working? How do you spend your time? Next, start moving one step closer to the reality of that dream, one step at a time. You will see that your self confidence and self esteem will naturally become more solid once you realize how capable you are. Push through the limits of possibilities. Push through your fears. Face them and push past them! You can do it! I can't wait to see all the cool stuff that is bursting to come out of you. Meditate, dream, believe and manifest. I believe in you. I love you. Peace out beautiful people.
Hello Beautiful People!
How are all you doing today? Yesterday I went to a group Reiki Healing. It was awesome. I walked into my friend Kolleen's house, a Reiki teacher as she was hosting a group healing. There were about 10 people sitting around the kitchen table filled with food. Everyone was talking and going one by one opening up about what brought them there. I was a Reiki virgin and Kolleen didn't want me to say much because she knew I was going through a lot with my family and she wanted to see if the group could pick up on anything. Somehow I was drawn to this group as healing was calling my name. She has a front room filled with chimes on the ceiling, a massage table, a bench, crystal singing bowls, a big mirror and all sorts of metaphysical decorations. Her house is peppered with energy related garb which kept my eyes wandering from one object to the next. Everything has a meaning in this house. We turned off the lights in the Reiki room except for white Christmas lights around the singing bowls.
Before we begin all the healers find different ways to protect their energy. I imagine I have a puffy white hairy padding all over my body. The first person for a Reiki healing layed down on the massage table. Kolleen then proceeded to hold a pendulum over the persons body starting with the feet and then scanning the full body to see where energy was being blocked. If the pendulum for her turned counter clockwise then all was good and if not then we needed to work on that part of the body. Once she was done everyone began. She started ringing the different singing bowls which corresponded to different chakras. I was sitting on the bench observing and then someone told me to join in and hold my hands up. I found myself wanting to touch the person in unusual places, like I wrapped my hands around her throat. Right as I did this I felt like I could see a bear in her. Her whole face became a bear and I had an insight that she was repressing a lot of anger, like a bear and she needed to voice it. Then I moved my hands to her eyes while everyone else was working on all different parts of her body removing negative energy. I stood at the top of her head, spread my fingers wide and lightly pressed my palms over her eyes. As I did this I felt like I was invoking the ability to see things as they really are instead of what she perceives. Then I wanted to press her left trapezius which is her feminine side. Maybe she needed to embrace her feminine? I pressed with one hand while the other hand was pulling the negative energy out of her and then I would throw it away. "Holy Shit", Kolleen says, the energy is very powerful for her. She has to leave and open the front door to throw away the energy and then she lights sage. The session is over and we have a mini discussion about all of our experience.
Everyone leaves the room and then a new person goes in to lay on the Reiki table. We all wear our energy protection and go back in. As we are doing this I have flashbacks to my childhood. I used to go to sleepovers with my girlfriends and at night we would do energy work on each other. We would play with the Ouija board, spelling words from other spirits. We would lift each other up with one finger by everyone gathering around our friend laying down and say "Light as a feather, Stiff as a board". We also would hold onto a pillow and rock back and forth while we fell into a trance and the other friend would try to take the pillow away and we would have another force preventing us from letting go of that pillow. It was great fun. I jump back to the Reiki room and I see adults playing like children sending love and healing energy to the wounds of our friends. This energy is real and somehow as adults we often ignore it. Life gets busy and we often ignore our energy and feelings. As we were doing Reiki, my imagination runs wild with images flashing before me. I saw this guy's inner child yearning for nurturing and protection. His legs needed strong grounding so I worked on his shins rooting them deep into the earth so that nothing could knock him over. He is strong when I am done. Another girl, I feel her pain, her delicate softness and how she needed to be energetically hugged. It was an amazing experience. I have to leave soon so I go next....
Everyone leaves the room, Kolleen throws the energy out the door. I go in alone and get settled on the table. I close my eyes and I fall into myself. I feel Kolleen's energy with the pendulum tracing my body. I'm dying to peek my eyes open and see where the heck that pendulum is swinging. I wish I could see a recording of my session so that I can have an out of body experience and witness all the energy work going on my body. I hear the crystal bowels ringing me deeper into my journey. Someone covers my eyes and everything goes black except for one bright shining white light. Then it's gone and I see a small rainbow aura followed by a golden bright yellow light beaming. It is beautiful. Then everything goes black again and I feel like I'm walking down a dark tunnel and hands are reaching out for me in all directions and they are all trying to take something from me. They all want something and everyone is taking everything I have but somehow I am ok because I died. My energy shifts from fear to fearlessness and I feel an overwhelming joy. I feel like I am so darn lucky. I am going through an incredible amount of turbulence in my life but somehow I am happy and grateful. I have so much. I have two beautiful kids, a beautiful home sanctuary. I've energetically released a lot of anger and pain towards people in my life and I'm doing my best by them. My kids have a loving father who helps me so much. I am surrounded by a loving community of friends all willing to offer a hand, a hug or a shoulder to cry on. I feel lifted. I have this yoga body that allows me to play and move in the most joyful ways, 20 years after I originally fell in love with dance. I get a second chance with my love of movement. I am reminded to play, have fun and have gratitude for all that I have.
When I am done I explain the journey that my Reiki session went on and Kolleen expertly helped me see that I had an energy shift from my old way of thinking as a victim to being super grateful for all that I have. I had a shift in beliefs that freed me from my old chains. I feel bliss from victim to gratitude. One of the Reiki girls tells me that I carry anger in my gallbladder. Yes I used to carry a lot of anger, maybe there is some still buried in there. I used to be able to burn everything down just with my eyes because I was so angry. Somehow that tension and pain left me. It's gone and I'm free, at least for now. I'm super grateful for this incredible and selfless group of Reiki masters. I feel honored that they would invite me to their house because they knew that I was dealing with two sick parents, one with advanced Alzheimer's and the other who is beginning to fall with Parkinson's. Their loving energy gives me strength to go through the storm.
I leave the house and give everyone a hug goodbye. Everyone offers something, help with senior care, you can borrow my Reiki book, hugs and I love you's to strangers who I now share a loving energetic bond. It was a great night. If you haven't tried Reiki then you must. Allow, trust and enjoy the love and healing. Much gratitude beautiful people, we are love. Peace and Light. If you want a Reiki session then let me know and I'll pass on your information to Kolleen. She can do remote sessions as well if you do not live in Clermont.
Hello Beautiful People! I would like to share with you about the second chakra and my experiences with balancing my own. I continue to learn and work through balancing all of my chakras. The word "chakra" in Sanskrit means "wheel" or "disk". It refers to a spiritual energy within the human body, of which there are seven energy wheels, starting at the base of the spine through the crown of your head. Imagine there is an invisible Prana, or life force, spinning energy where matter and consciousness meet which keeps us vibrant, healthy and alive. The wheels correspond to massive nerve centers, major organs as well as our psychological, emotional and spiritual states of being. It is important that our seven main chakras stay open, aligned, fluid and balanced. If there is a blockage, energy cannot flow and we feel stuck or trapped in an energy pattern. The goal is to balance all seven chakras so that we can begin to energetically thrive. Diseases begin energetically through our mental and emotional patterns. If we can energetically change and heal our emotional states in a positive way then we can release negative feelings and emotions which cause our illnesses. We can begin to live a fulfilling life with joy and peace. The present moment unfolds before your eyes as you let go of past hurt and future worries. You begin to feel safe, secure and a sense of belonging in the world.
Let's talk about the second chakra. This is a very cool chakra, they all are really! The second chakra is your sacral chakra and it correlates with your sexual creativity. The color is orange, the key is D, the element is water. Essential oils that are nice for the second chakra are: cardamom, clary sage, neroli, orange, patchouli, rose, sandalwood, yang ylang. It is located in your lower abdomen to navel area. The energy connection to the body is the sexual organs, large intestine, lower vertebrae, pelvis, hip area, appendix and bladder. The chakra relates to our relationships with other people and our need to control our physical environment to some extent. The energy in this chakra enables us to have a sense of personal identity and protective psychological boundaries. The fears associated with this chakra are fear of loss of control, or fear of being controlled by another. The strengths associated with this chakra are the ability to survive financially and physically on one's own and to defend and protect oneself. Here resides the "fight or flight" instinct. The sacred truth of the second chakra is Honor One Another. The purpose of all of our relationships is to become more conscious whether the relationship is casual or more intimate. Much of this information comes from Carolyn Myss's book titled Anatomy of the Spirit. Please check it out if you want to read more.
So my second chakra was out of wack! I have been divorced for two years now but definitely the divorce shook me in ways that I wasn't expecting. I was with my ex for over 10 years and I didn't realize how afraid I was after the separation. My primary fear was fear of survival. I worked with him and his dog training business for most of the time that we were together. I had to decide, would I still be a dog trainer without him? This is a good question to ask yourself if you are with a partner and working together. Are you doing it to help them live out their dream? Would you still be doing this if that person was no longer in your life? I had the classic dream of building a life, a business and a family together. What I didn't realize was that in the process of doing this, I was giving up myself. I was giving up my dreams, my life, my business of choice for the benefit of the family. I wasn't taking care of myself, I was taking care of everyone else. When I shockingly realized this it was like a humble slap in the face. Looking back this seems so obvious but for me I was completely blind sighted by my own denial of the situation. After we separated I found myself angry. I was angry that I was doing everything for the unit and not myself. I was angry that I was coming last and most importantly that I was desperately unhappy. I am a very hard worker and I worked very hard at my classical dream of the life, business, family unit. When everything fell apart I was crushed. I had to let things go and start asking myself, what would I be doing if I was the last person on earth? How would I be spending my time? What is my passions in life? How am I going to start over?
Starting over was a very slow gradual process for me. Yes I could have gone out and gotten any job but I had a strong calling to take a chance and live out the life of my dreams. How can I do this? At the divorce I found myself as a single mom with 2 young children, a 2 year old, a 4 year old and both of my parents were very sick with Alzheimer's and Parkinson's. It seemed like my whole world was crashing down on me. My ex was able to move on with new partners where I found myself craving being alone. You would think I would have wanted to move on too, I did, but I found myself with very little time alone to develop my new life. A new partner would take up the little alone time that I had. Yes I would have a partner but I would find myself in the same co-dependent state that I was in before. I wanted real change with real options and results for myself. I sometimes wonder if I made things more painful for myself that they needed to be but either way, I was hurting BAD. I spent the last year of my life alone and in a full out hustle to develop the new life that I wanted to live. I had to focus on my finances to stabilize them with the new business that I was growing. Without financial security, my second chakra would be out of wack.
I found myself doing a lot of visionary work to create this new life that I wanted to live. This started with a 30 day meditation project where I meditated in silence for 30 minutes for 30 days. I was in complete resistance to meditating because I am a do'er and sitting and doing nothing seemed like a complete waste of time for me. Not doing anything and sitting with myself was the best thing that I could do for myself. I found myself wanting to forgive everyone in my life and in the process forgive myself. This incredible healing journey overcame my energetic body and I now live a much different life energetically. I had to shed many tears, completely stop everything and ask God what should I do. I started to listen to everything that was being presented before me. Nothing was an accident, I thought. I started building my business one step at a time. I threw myself into my yoga practice which I am madly in love with and in the process I am developing the body that I always wanted. I made up with my mom whom I was angry with for the past year and a half. It mended my relationships with family and my father who really needed help. I started fixing things that were wrong with my house creating a strong foundation for myself and designing it creatively to accommodate my preferences. For the first time, I am beginning to live the life that I wanted to live. I am starting to feel control over my own environment where I didn't feel that before.
Creatively speaking, alone time is the best time for creative development. I didn't realize how important this was until I had it, used it for creating and was amazed by what was coming out of me. I started expressing myself creatively through my yoga practice. I would spend lots of time looking up the best teachers, going to the best teachers classes, learning, applying and designing the yoga classes that I wanted to take. They weren't being offered anywhere and this was what I had to offer. I have a desire for strength work in my yoga practice with the vinyasa moving meditation and creative choreography. If you haven't come to one of my classes yet then I personally invite you. Please come, share with me, if anything is too difficult then take a child's pose for a moment and continue on when you are ready. I want to meet you and connect. This is the other area of my life that has shifted. I learned how to be more compassionate through my struggles. Now I can really listen to someone and feel deep compassion for their journey. I'm learning that no one has it super easy. Through this compassion, I'm finding my relationships are better. I'm becoming a better friend. I'm not perfect but I'm trying.
Creative writing starting flowing through me. I started by writing about my 30 day meditation project and realized I really like writing. Somehow ideas and words are flowing through my fingers on the keyboard faster than I can physically type them out. This was really cool for me to experience because I never thought of myself as creative before. Then someone said it to me, "You're really creative" and I thought to myself, "Am I?". "Yes!" of course I am! We all are creative! Maybe some of you simply haven't spent enough alone time yet to play and find out where your creative energy lies. Maybe it's in cooking, cleaning, organizing, writing, music, dancing, building a business, anything. We all have something! You have something very unique and special to give to the universe that only you can deliver. Find out what that is! I promise you it is so fulfilling to tap into your creativity. For me, it's how God speaks through me coming up with something more cool and amazing than I could have done on my own.
Finally, my sexuality. I really struggle with talking about this one because I have been open in the past about my life. I found out that people harshly judge you based off your sexuality, if you are a good person or not. For the most part, I am choosing to become a much more private person, protecting myself unless I trust someone. In general, for awhile I was exploring my edges trying to find out what felt comfortable for me. Then I went into the complete opposite, finding myself in seclusion and stopping everything as I wasn't finding what I was looking for. It's been a long time now and I decided to see what's out there once again. I am careful with my time as I don't want anything interfering with my creative alone time but I also realize that I'm lonely and that life is better when you have someone to share it with. As far as sexual expression goes, that takes shape with everything that you choose to wear and how your present yourself. If you want to feel sexy then it could be something as simple as putting on long dangling earrings or perfume. You get to creatively decide how you want to express yourself. I love people who are unique and who break the conservative social rules that seem to take shape nowadays. Life is meant to be expressed uniquely. I invite you to express yourself as I can't think of anything more refreshing than to see the unique beautiful person unfolding before me. You are creative. You are beautiful. You are sexy. Explore it and discover the beautiful treasure within you waiting to be found. I love you all. I don't claim to be a chakra expert but I can show you how they applied to my life. I hope this helps you on your journey to live the life of your dreams! Peace, love, happiness and a balanced second chakra!
Hello beautiful people! Holy cow! The other night I was soundly sleeping in my daughter's bedroom since my house is getting remodeled. I normally close the windows at night except this night my air conditioner goes out because the system needs more freon. I have to wait until tomorrow for the service man to come. It's hot and I can't sleep as comfortably as normal because I'm sweaty. I have to turn the fan on full blast which blows my long hair on my face. I have to pull my hair back, twist it and sleep on it. I finally fall asleep. Now I'm in a deep sleep after at least an hour of tossing and turning until I could finally settle down. It's peaceful. Several hours go by and I am out. All of a sudden I hear loud scream outside along with a purring noise. The screams are frantic and blood curling. They are a loud terror as the animal frantically tries to get away. I'm just on the other side of the screen for my window! Yikes! I hear a noise that sounds like a rolling of the tongue. I think it's a raccoon but I'm not sure. I found baby raccoons in my yard once so I know they are out there. I live across the street from a forest and there is a retention pond behind me so I have wild life around me. The screaming continues and is so panic stricken that I pop out of my bed like a Jack in the Box and look outside. It's really dark and I can't see anything. I turn off my night lights so I can see better. I can't see anything so I go back to lie down. I hear one more final soprano scream followed by bones cracking. Then there is silence. OMG!!!! I'm totally freaking out. It's like 4am. I try to go back to sleep but the adrenaline is pumping. My ears are alert to all the sounds going on outside. I hear slurping as flesh is being torn off the bones. Then I hear a screech as I hear teeth scraping and cracking bones. It takes at least 20 minutes for the animal to eat the other animal. Then I hear nothing and I can finally sleep. All I gotta say is that I'm never gonna want to camp in my backyard with alligators, raccoons and I've seen wild boar out there two times too! Waaaaaaaahhhhhh! This city girl got scared! Sometimes you might think the country is safer and to be honest, I feel safer in the city.
Ok, of course I can't just look at something like it was a random act. Everything happens for a reason in my opinion. I look up raccoons and what this spirit animal means. This is what I found...when you encounter the raccoon symbolism, you are being asked to let go of a situation, person, belief or habit. Go inside and see what is stopping your progress. They can also be a signal to accept the gifts being offered to you by the universe right now. Remember to leave no stone unturned in your quest for resolution with the current problem you are facing. Take time to look at the whole picture as raccoon spirit animals have the ingenuity to resolve the problem. People with the raccoon totem tend to be shy and charismatic at the same time. They are very sociable once they get to know the people around them. These people have an insatiable curiosity. This noises the dangers of what they are exploring. They thrive on new experiences and activities and are excellent problem solvers. This power animals energy displays calm and serene person under pressure. They strategize their responses to chaos. They are tactile and use touch before all other senses.
How in the world does this apply to my life? I do have an insatiable curiosity for the truth. The truth is what drives me for whatever reason. Sometimes the truth is ugly but within the truth lies the answers. Don't be afraid to look at the truth. Yes sometimes I've found myself in a lot of danger while in the quest for the truth. And, when I've found myself in trouble from my seeking, I've been very ingenious in solving the problems. I feel like the universe is guiding me all the time, all I have to do is answer the call. In the meantime, I've been on a path to enlightenment and I've been letting go of lots of beliefs that are no longer working for me. In the process I feel more free, light and fearless. I'm learning to love and let go of control and in the process somehow life has been more beautiful this way. I am naturally super shy but I've learned to get over my shyness and I've learned to be more charismatic sometimes. Right now, it feels like the universe is holding my hand through this scary yet exciting time of my life. I gladly accept all the gifts that I receive right now as I feel like I've also given a lot as well. Peace out my friends. I'm sure I can read into this further but I don't feel a need to. I have all the answers I need. Life is good. I love you! Adios amigos!
I was chatting with a dear friend of mine today and the topic of vision came up. This is something that I've thought about many times as I am attempting to create the life that I want to live. I have been meditating, creating a beautiful home environment and developing solid relationships along my path to help foster this creative process. I have been completely transparent and opening my heart to heal so that I can move past the pain and into the creative process. Creativity is blocked by negative emotions and thought patterns. It's easy to say, "just let that stuff go" and then really doing it. You can say you forgive but how do you really sincerely do it so that it's released from your emotional psyche? For starters you have to get real, really real. Become super honest with yourself and don't be afraid to spend time alone so that you can walk down the healing path. Find any pain that you have and feel it. Feel it so that it can pass you instead of clinging onto it. Feel it so that you can release it once and for all. Release ALL negative feelings about everything. The healing process may take some time so be patient with it. Michael Bernard Beckwith says that the faster you forgive, then the faster your healing process will happen. Next think of anyone that you might have hurt. How can you make amends energetically? A phone call, a message or a meeting to say you are sorry for anything that may have happened can go a long way.
Next release any fear that you may have about anything. Trust that the universe is on your side and replace fear with love. I read that fear is simply false evidence appearing real. There is really nothing to be afraid of. Coming into the present moment helps us drop this fear as we can now get out of the past and the future. I've been watching Eckhart Tolle lately because I've been actively working on a path to enlightenment. I've had laser focus as the storm of my life swirls around me. Somehow by staying centered, staying still, forgiving, softening and simply stopping, the storm is quieting down. I'm find my inner being coming in and out of presence. If I fall into the past or the future then I simply witness it and come back into the presence. I'm finding that I can hold the presence longer and longer with practice. Stay alert to anything that may happen in the present moment. Tap into your senses and create a sharpness to what is going on around you. The more present that you become, the richer and fuller your life becomes and the faster that the universe works with you. Stay open to what may happen in front of you. The universe is working for you all the time. It's simply up to you if you want to start paying attention to the inner guidance that is within you. Pay attention! This is important as this will affect the quality of your life. Believe that you are enough, that you are worth it and that good things can and will happen to you. What is happening in your presence right now?
Begin to cultivate your creativity. When we tap into the present moment then we can start a creative journey. Creativity needs presence. Thought turns into form as if God or the Universe is speaking through you with a greater intelligence than anything that you can come up with on your own. When you create, don't judge, just go with it. Time and practice will refine your creative skills. You may trip, fall, mess up or get criticized when you first begin to create. Keep going. Let your heart guide you through the process allowing the softest most tender parts of your soul to be exposed. The rawness of what you create will be the thing that most attracts people to your projects. An example is that, I took a screenwriting course in Chicago. My teacher said, "Write from your heart. Feel your heart weeping as the words fall onto the page. Write about yourself as you are already familiar with all the wild details of your life. You are already so interesting". If you are not a writer then find how you can put your heart and soul into everything that you make.
Joy can often be your guide through this creative process. When you take a risk you are demonstrating courage. When you find courage then you are overcoming fear and finding an inner happiness that doesn't leave you no matter what is happening in life. What is your passion? If you don't know it then meditate on it. If you still don't know then experiment with life, try things and play. If you continue to play without criticizing yourself then it will happen. This is why it is nice to play with children sometimes. They are so creative and use their imaginations without judgment. My 4 year old and 6 year old interrupted me three times while writing this post for a wrestling/tickle session. Yes it took me a lot longer to get the job done but their giggles free my soul. They are a constant reminder to me to relax, play and laugh.
Now let's apply this to your life. Ask yourself, how do you want your life to look? What does a perfect day look like to you? How much time do you want to spend on your creative projects? Do you want to travel? What do you need to do to allow the vision of your life come into fruition? You can work really hard in life and get nowhere as if you are on a treadmill going nowhere. Things come to you at random. You run around in a million different directions unclear. This affects your ability to make good decisions. When you take the time to become clear about what you want in life then things take faster. Less effort is used and "the way" is shown with a laser like focus. Everything in your life becomes easier. You know you are on the right path when life seems to start to work for you that against you. I have a very successful friend who has it tattooed on his arm to "Try Easier". This inspires me as I often work hard try hard but I have been on that treadmill. Honestly, I'm tired of the treadmill. I want to throw it away and try easier myself. Develop your creativity so that you can envision and design the life of your dreams. It can happen!
To summarize, heal yourself first, drop any fear, develop creativity through presence, ask your heart, find the joy and envision the life of your dreams. Think of all the details and laugh at the wildly fun things that you can think of. Allow yourself to envision the most beautiful, most wonderful, most amazing life that you can think of. Once you are clear, somehow the universe starts to give you answers as you tap into your inner voice. Get quiet and allow the universe to do it's magic. Things are waiting to be born through you. I hope this helps you see that I'm not writing this blog only to cry over the past. I'm writing this blog so that I can heal. I have plans. Creative plans. I am envisioning awesomeness. I can't wait to see what's going to happen next. I am documenting my journey so that you can join this wild ride that I am on! Come with me! I hope this inspires you to find a vision for your life and create your most beautiful life! Much love, light and happiness beautiful people. I love you all!
Wow, I love this Chakra! It resonates with me so much as it was one of the chakras that I needed deep healing. The color of the root chakra is red. It is located at the base of the spine near the coccyx. It is energetically connected to the spinal column, rectum, legs, bones, feet, and immune system. The first chakra is the foundation of emotional and mental health. The first chakra is our base for logic, order and structure. The root chakra is connected to the feminine spirit of the earth known as Gaia. Fear of physical survival, abandonment by the group and loss of physical order start in the root chakra. It's strengths are tribal identity, bonding and the tribal honor code; the support and loyalty that gives one a sense of safety and connection to the physical world. The sacred truth of the root chakra is All Is One.
My roots were completely ripped up out of the ground and I was lost not knowing what to build upon as my foundation wasn't there. It started with a big move. My ex-husband got really sick with Lyme Disease. It efforts to restore his health we moved to Vilcabamba Ecuador, a low cost of living, healthy vegan community for him to rest. We were in the hustle and bustle of life and grew his dog training business to be a successful enterprise. I was a voice-over and commercial actress in the city and that was doing well too. The down side of all this success is that we were working all the time. With an animal business, it is very difficult to get downtime as they need care 24 hours a day. And to top it off, we were newly weds with a newborn baby. I was scared that his lyme disease could become life threatening. He dropped to 150 lbs at 6'3". We sold everything we owned including the business and moved to Ecuador to restore his health which he did. I had some much needed downtime to be a mommy and he got to rest a lot and be surrounded with a like minded community.
When he was feeling better we decided to move back to the US. We chose to come to Florida because my parents were here and they were on a cruise for a few months and we could stay at their house while we looked for a place to live. I wanted help with the baby just in case anything happened to him. I knew I needed at least one other person to help me. My relationship with my parents was strained. My mother was jealous that I went wedding dress shopping one day with her and one day with my mother in law and I chose the dress with my mother in law. It was cheaper and a better dress, it wasn't personal. It kicked off our marriage with a lot of resentment as she sent vicious emails to all my in-laws calling it a Hager dictator take over wedding, calling my father in law a drunk simply for taking a silly picture with my with our tongues to the side and telling my mother in law that she stole a mother's right because of the dress. It got nasty. I was horrified. I felt alone on my special day. Everyone acted cordial the day of the wedding but the awkward tension was there between me and my new husband further rocking my new roots.
When we moved back to Florida we attempted to repair a broken relationship with my parents. After all they were my family and there was a lot of good that happened too. I was pregnant with my second child right when we moved back to Florida. I always wanted babies ever since I was a little girl and I always wanted to share this with my mother. I never imagined all this fighting would happen. My ex-husband didn't like my parents, for obvious reasons. My mother looked at him like a blue collar worker and he was beneath me because he wasn't a doctor or lawyer. It made it almost impossible to get everyone to get along. My son had an accident and cracked his head and my mother called the police and DCFS on me only to complicate things further. There is a long history of family disfunction with the family that I grew up with. The fighting with my parents caused tension with my four brothers and they had their own issues with my parents. At this time my ex and I divorced. I had 2 babies, a 2 year old, a 4 year old. I moved to a new city where I knew no one. I had to start my career over as I was running my ex-husbands dog business with him for 10 years and my parents get fatally sick at only 68 with Alzheimer's disease for my dad and Parkinson's with my mom. I had a boyfriend in the middle of all of this and everything fell apart. Oh my god, what am I going to do? I had anxiety and panic in me like I've never had before. I had to re-invent myself. I had to start over as my roots were completely ripped out of the ground. I was a single mom of 2, no career, no friends and no family in a new town. I was thinking "Thank you God". How much can a person take.
Somehow I walked into One Yoga & Fitness in Clermont, Florida at the height of my personal crisis. I went through the 200 hour yoga teacher training and one month before I graduated the studio owners split up. My ex-husband was invited to teach dog yoga at the other studio and my ex-boyfriend was asked to help out with the build out of the other studio. What do I do? There was some shuffling as I had to decide, who was my tribe? I tried out the other studio and after two months I was back at One Yoga & Fitness with Gina Keefe. Gina & I cried together over the split and I opened my heart to her as I was at a complete loss in my life. She scooped me up like I was her broken baby bird that she had to protect. She emotionally grounded me as she showered me with her love, support and kindness. She never judged me and she started to mentor me one step at a time. She was like another mother for me. She helped me re-build a career, step by tearful step. My other teacher Shelly and Gina helped me mend my relationships with my family and I had to learn about the humbling power of forgiveness. No matter what happened to me with my family or ex-husband, I still loved them. I was hurting. I needed to soften and change. I had to learn that my mother's attacks are really her unhealed wounds and not really her. It was simply a fearful aspect of her personality. I changed the way that I reacted to her to have much more compassion and we were able to mend our relationship. I needed that so bad because I wanted them to know how much I did love them, especially now that they were so sick. I also had to find forgiveness with my ex-husband. He loves my children as much as I do. My ex-husband was simply tired of being picked on and I had to learn to respect his boundaries. We are the parents of two of the most beautiful people that I have ever met in my life, my children. I want them to grow up with love.
Now, I am on my own, alone but somehow I have strength because I took the time to heal my broken root chakra. I am actively building my new business, re-modeling my broken house, mending relationships and creating new friends who are becoming my new family as the one that I had is changing. Never give up hope if you feel like you have been up-rooted. So much beauty comes out of the mess if you lift up your head and move forward. All I can say is that it really helped me that Gina held my hand the whole way through. I have so much love for this studio and as Gina once said, "Yoga changed my life". For me it really did. Much Love & Light to you all. I love you!
When I was in high school I had an insatiable desire to be liked and to be popular. There was a lot of turbulence in my family growing up and I didn't look to my family for emotional support. Instead I looked to my friends for the love and support that I wasn't getting at home. I would think, I hope I'm funny enough, pretty enough, cool enough, enough of whatever it takes to be liked. I would crave this attention so much that I would often sabotage myself in efforts to get one more approval. We all have this desire to connect and to be loved. I was coming from a place of lack instead of a place of abundance.
I'm about to substitute my friend Jenny's yoga class. Jenny is a very popular teacher and I'm finding myself falling back into the insecure feelings of I hope they like me. As I wait outside the room, ready to go in, I hear Chad's TRX class thumping to Footloose. Wait, Rocky just came on. Students are laughing and shouting I love Rocky. I hear Chad shouting workout routines like a drill sergeant and the students grunt, groan and love it. Chad is a very popular teacher. I feel intimidated but then I think why do I have this neediness to have everyone like me? Do I like me? Yes, I do like me! I'm different than these teachers but that's what makes this yoga studio so great. We all have something different to offer. As I'm about to go in, I change my thinking to how can I serve. All my students want to connect otherwise they would be home doing yoga alone. I want to connect with my students and I have to assume that if they showed up that they want to connect with me too. I love my students and I love seeing them grow. Nothing excites me more than to see a miraculous transformation within them in body and mind. Healing, self care, self love excites me because these were things that I needed. If we are truly one, then I'm not the only one who has ever felt this way. There is an abundance of love to go around.
As I sit here waiting, I think about Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now. I am anxious about the future. I'm am anxious about a class that hasn't happened yet. In the process, I lose myself in the Now. Along with changing my thinking from I hope they like me to How Can I Serve, I also remind myself that the future is just my thoughts. My thoughts are just a made up story that isn't real. Come into the present moment. My thoughts are meaningless. My thoughts are simply complaints and my not enoughness is what my ego identifies itself with. I can choose to be present and let the ego go. As Eckhart Tolle says, "The essence of now is who you are. Or you fall into a false sense of self if you are not presence. This is the ego with repetitive, unconscious, thought patterns and emotional patterns. Trapped in the story. Wisdom can only be found in no thought. Wisdom comes from stillness. Be aware of the inner energy of the body. Tap into your sense perceptions. A high degree of alertness. Bring in thoughtlessness. Thoughtlessness implies more consciousness. To awaken. The compulsion to think is just a habit." Thanks Eckhart, you make it sound so simple! But that is just it, it is simple. KISS, Keep It Simple Stupid was an old computer programming rule that I learned back in my coding days when I was hired out of school to save the world by fixing the Y2K bug. Keep the anxiety at bay by simply coming into the present moment. Yes I still fall into old habits, but I am developing an awareness to actively change my energy. I hope this also helps you to come into the presence.
I read this blog to the class and it felt like almost immediately my nervousness was released the moment that I made my confession. We did a connection circle where we start in a line and connect with one another by looking into each other's eyes for 10 to 15 seconds and then move to the next student. At the end of the circle two girls were crying. It was touching to see how much others also wanted to connect. I felt the love and warmth of the room. One girl was new to yoga and I kept checking on her as many of the moves were new for her. I was happy to see her working through the awkwardness of doing yoga for the first time. It's not easy to get out of your comfort zone but she was doing it. Go deep into the present moment and find all the love and happiness that you desire. Much Love & Light to you all!
Hello beautiful people, This is my health blog designed to encourage you to live your best life. Hopefully my experiences will positively influence your life somehow!