I meditate late at night this time in my airbnb house that I live in now. I moved out of Darrel's place so that I can sell the home. I sit cross legged on my bed and close my eyes, cup my hands and escape. I focus on breathing. My friend in yoga has to get her gall bladder removed and I think about our conversation. I was recommending to her not to get it done because gall stones are caused by animal products and there is a chance that if she water fasted and changed her diet to plant based then she could save her gall bladder. She says it's too late because she already paid for the surgery and is sad about missing yoga. I am sad too because she is such a hard worker. She has been coming to classes regularly and dropped her weight from 174 to 132 through yoga. I'm so proud of her and her progress. I hope she is ok and the surgery goes well. I respect her and her choices but I worry. Why worry because there is nothing I can do anyway? She has to walk her own path.
I am biking the next morning with my friend from yoga. This girl is awesome, great energy and I'm excited to go and happy to have made so many new friends since I moved to Florida. I'm so grateful for all the beautiful people in my life and all the loving support that I have been given during some very difficult times. The trail where we will bike is beautiful, lots of nature, solitude, exercise and great conversation. Life can be awesome!
I am writing this post a few days after the meditation and I notice that if I write about it right after then I remember more. If I wait my memory gets amnesia! I can hardly remember my witnessing of my thoughts if I wait. I see the importance of logging your thoughts so you can review them and see if there are any patterns or nagging thoughts. That is our intuition telling us something and I wonder how I can listen better. I get very restless at the end of the meditation checking the time almost every minute at the end. I'm so tired and I want to close my eyes and sleep. I'm exhausted from moving back into my house and happy that I was able to squeeze in a meditation today.